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2004-02-21 - 12:49 a.m. i saw him tonight...
Entry: anguish Function: noun Definition: pain Synonyms: affliction, agony, distress, dole, grief, heartache, heartbreak, hurting, misery, pang, rue, sorrow, suffering, throe, torment, torture, woe, wretchedness Antonyms: euphoria, happiness, joy, joyfulness, pleasure Concept: injury/pain Source: Roget's Interactive Thesaurus, First Edition (v 1.0.0) Copyright � 2004 by Lexico Publishing Group, LLC. All rights reserved. Entry: desperation Function: noun Definition: hopelessness Synonyms: agony, anguish, anxiety, concern, dejection, depression, desolation, despair, despondency, discomfort, disconsolateness, distraction, distress, fear, gloom, grief, heartache, hopelessness, melancholy, misery, pain, pang, sorrow, torture, trouble, unhappiness, worry Antonyms: confidence, happiness, hope, optimism Concept: hopelessness Source: Roget's Interactive Thesaurus, First Edition (v 1.0.0) Copyright � 2004 by Lexico Publishing Group, LLC. All rights reserved. Entry: distress Function: noun Definition: pain Synonyms: ache, affliction, agony, anguish, anxiety, bad news, blues, care, concern, cross, dejection, desolation, disappointment, discomfort, disquietude, dolor, embarrassment, grief, headache, heartache, heartbreak, irritation, malaise, misery, mortification, ordeal, pain, pang, perplexity, sadness, shame, sorrow, stew, suffering, throe, torment, torture, trial, tribulation, trouble, twinge, unconsolability, unhappiness, vexation, visitation, woe, worriment, worry, wretchedness Antonyms: alleviation, comfort, ease, peace, relief, relieving, solace Concept: sadness Source: Roget's Interactive Thesaurus, First Edition (v 1.0.0) Copyright � 2004 by Lexico Publishing Group, LLC. All rights reserved. Entry: dolor Function: noun Definition: misery Synonyms: agony, anguish, distress, grief, heartache, heartbreak, passion, ruth, sadness, sorrow, suffering, upset Antonyms: beatitude, blessedness Concept: sadness Source: Roget's Interactive Thesaurus, First Edition (v 1.0.0) Copyright � 2004 by Lexico Publishing Group, LLC. All rights reserved. Entry: grief Function: noun Definition: suffering Synonyms: affliction, agony, anguish, bemoaning, bereavement, bewailing, care, dejection, deploring, depression, desolation, despair, despondency, discomfort, disquiet, distress, dole, dolor, gloom, grievance, harassment, heartache, heartbreak, infelicity, lamentation, lamenting, malaise, melancholy, misery, mortification, mournfulness, mourning, pain, purgatory, regret, remorse, repining, rue, sadness, sorrow, suffering, torture, trial, tribulation, trouble, unhappiness, upset, vexation, woe, worry, wretchedness Concept: sadness Source: Roget's Interactive Thesaurus, First Edition (v 1.0.0) Copyright � 2004 by Lexico Publishing Group, LLC. All rights reserved. Entry: heartbreak Function: noun Definition: misery Synonyms: affliction, agony, anguish, bale, bitterness, broken heart, care, desolation, despair, distress, grief, heartache, heartsickness, heavy heart, pain, regret, remorse, rue, sorrow, suffering, torment, torture, woe Concept: disappointment Source: Roget's Interactive Thesaurus, First Edition (v 1.0.0) Copyright � 2004 by Lexico Publishing Group, LLC. All rights reserved. Entry: misery Function: noun Definition: pain Synonyms: ache, agony, all-overs, anguish, anvil chorus, bad news, blues, depression, desolation, despair, despondency, discomfort, distress, dolor, gloom, grief, hardship, headache, heartache, hurting, melancholy, pang, passion, sadness, sorrow, squalor, stew, stitch, suffering, throe, torment, torture, twinge, unhappiness, woe, worriment, worry, wretchedness Concept: injury/pain Source: Roget's Interactive Thesaurus, First Edition (v 1.0.0) Copyright � 2004 by Lexico Publishing Group, LLC. All rights reserved. Entry: pain Function: noun Definition: suffering Synonyms: affliction, agony, anguish, anxiety, bitterness, despondency, distress, grief, heartache, hurt, malaise, martyrdom, misery, rack, sadness, shock, suffering, torment, torture, travail, tribulation, woe, worry, wretchedness Concept: sadness Source: Roget's Interactive Thesaurus, First Edition (v 1.0.0) Copyright � 2004 by Lexico Publishing Group, LLC. All rights reserved. Entry: regret Function: noun Definition: doubt Synonyms: affliction, anguish, annoyance, apologies, apology, bitterness, care, compunction, concern, conscience, contrition, demur, disappointment, discomfort, dissatisfaction, dole, grief, heartache, heartbreak, lamentation, misgiving, nostalgia, pang, penitence, qualm, regretfulness, remorse, repentance, ruefulness, scruple, self-accusation, self-condemnation, self-disgust, self-reproach, sorrow, uneasiness, woe, worry Concept: doubt Source: Roget's Interactive Thesaurus, First Edition (v 1.0.0) Copyright � 2004 by Lexico Publishing Group, LLC. All rights reserved. Entry: sadness Function: noun Definition: unhappiness Synonyms: anguish, blahs, bleakness, blue devils, blue funk, broken heart, bummer, cheerlessness, dejection, depression, despondency, disconsolateness, dismals, dispiritedness, distress, dolefulness, dolor, down trip, downcastness, downer, dysphoria, forlornness, funk, gloominess, grief, grieving, heartache, heartbreak, heavy heart, hopelessness, letdown, listlessness, melancholy, misery, moodiness, mopes, mournfulness, mourning, poignancy, sorrow, sorrowfulness, the blues, the dumps, tribulation, woe Concept: sadness
2004-02-09 - 12:06 a.m. i am disturbed, so what?
2004-02-06 - 3:11 p.m. just telling it like it is.
2004-02-01 - 11:07 p.m. what do you know...?i can see a light. sorta. and, this too will pass. as long as i don't call him. easier said than done. 2004-01-29 - 4:23 p.m. i wish someone...
a broken heart. that i knew was coming. there is no solace. no peace. only room enough for pain. resentment. anger. rejection. worthlessness. a year of happiness and comfort is over. and, the only way out of this is to ache and grieve and moan and wail and sit with it. 2004-01-20 - 11:30 p.m. why do i do what i do?
i've been acting for most of my life and this is the hardest production i've ever been involved in. physically. learning to pole dance. costume quick changes and heavy, f'ing heavy head pieces. a ginormous stage that works against entrances and exits. i'm just exhausted. acting. playing 5 characters. in not realism, but super styled hyper-realism. being the runt of the proverbial litter in the cast of heavy-hitters. emotionally. it's about rape. sexism. the marginalization of women. murder. the law. capital punishment. and, i cry every day now. so, why is it that i'm killing myself trying to pay bills and work on this all the time. i quit my main job to do this. and, i've wanted this so badly. i'm insane. but, it's worth it.
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